call me crazy

"HEY, CRAZY!"

do i set myself up for this type of shiet... lastnight while painting i was thinkin, do i REALLY want some sort of a relationship// do i? i have no legitiment answer for myself, no one to answer to BUT myself and i didn't want to answer. here goes, my answer is NO. i just thought it'd be sweetsweet to have some guy to call my "he"[i still dream of it, and how it'll be when it happens] without leaving room for disappointment, i don't want it. i don't want a "he" thats to much pressure on me to be a "she" when all i want to do is BE happy in what i do, who im with, where im at. besides, setting myself up for disappointment and heartbreak, is not cute. setting myself up for saddness is not cute, either. im not saying that ima shoot down everyguy that tries to be anything with me, im just saying that you can "BE" and if somehow you turn out to "BE" what it is i want, then... we'll see// right?
i just want someone to call, knowing that he'll answer, &i already have that.
i just want someone to CARE for me, &i already have that.
i just want someone that wants to "hang out" with me, &i already have that.
i just want someone who'll hug me, &i already have that.
i just want someone to miss me when i don't call, &i already have that.
i just want someone to write poems to, &i already have that.
i just want someone to compliment me, &i already have that.
i just want someone who'll put me first, &i already have that.

funny, i have what i've been looking for all along... these guys ride to the end for me, im not dating any of them, and i don't need to be to get what they give me....

besides i don't kiss boys anyway :]
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yeah, yes, why not! simple things, simple things<3
and thats how it is with me, it's all about the simple things, little things, microscopic even// and i feel like i've already found "him"// seemingly to just my luck, he's caught up in his own thing; and things like these take time to get over, rid of, and move on [unless your me, hair flip and a blunt goodbyee:]// moves will be made at somepoint// simple like how he looks at me and knows im soo much more// simple like how he greets me with a long hug like i love// simple like my pink barbie nails he notices and im missing my right hand painted because well, he usually does it for me// simple like sharing and giving him one of my ring pops// simple like my un-matching socks that match because they complete each other// ehh... not some sappy girl wanting something BEYOND dreams, i just want "him" to know what he says and means :]]