"one half won't do"

lets pretend for a second or maybe the REST of your life, that it NEVER happened! with that being said,
i am one WHOLE not HALF of anything, i give my ALL and i deserve ALL// it's only fair but, if for some reason [in you beliefs] it's okay to give a hair-flip and a "sure" then only feel my RESPECT for SELF when im around// "treat others the way YOU want to be treated" is the reason i RESPECT you and your decisions[as LAME as they are to me]

i give WHOLE;
words[although mispelled]
soul[although not sweetsweet]
being[my time of day or night]
love[as complicated as it maybe]
me[even though you don't know it]

i deserve WHOLE &i won't settle for anything less than that,
*toot-toot
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last nights rants and ending up in a random locations, is what i live for! my girls, MY GIRLS! well, their not girls, even though they have "lady parts" their WOMEN, in deed :] something about hearing her say, "i love you so much" after so long is what i was missing :/ something about crying my eyes out, in an old room, after her thinking that it was something more than what it really was, after her thinking that it had to do with some BOY and she realized that it wasn't what she thought, it wasn't because of some boy, and how she felt after//"it hurt me to think that my sister would not be okay with a decision she made. that is NOT the girl i know"// i am NOT them, not to sound cocky, i am HIGHER than that// it's NOT what i WANT, it's NOT who i AM// people already love me for WHO I AM, i don't ever need to feel PRESSURED to do something that i don't want to do// you live and you learn, i have LEARNED// it's not who i am, it's not what i do, and thats okay :] // to think that i "lost my luster" is a HURTFUL point// a lost of luster, breaks my heart// but i have not! the drive is there the WANT is there// i love how she makes me feel, "you can do ANYTHING!" it's not a sugar coat, half lie, she MEANS it, and i know it :]// i love this, i love this movement, i love where i am going and where i have been, i love rowsa, i love the REAL smiles and REAL words and REAL actions, the "i got this" and how we care for each other, i have an older sister but she is FAR from old and i love her, soo much.... my mentor AND my sister<3